Well lately I've been enduring many trials. I've been through many things that has hurt my feelings. Lately these past few days i have really gotten a deep revelation about "turning the other cheek." It was so funny how God gave me these DEEP revelations a few days before i was going to actually endure these tests.
Well it starts first with my kids' dad. We really don't talk that often and when he comes around its like UGH. i never bother him much about the kids and i always let him off the hook with a certain situation. So i decided to let him see the kids out of the goodness of my heart. thinking MAYBE he will help me out but of course NO! i practically get spitted on in so many words. All i could think of is how NICE i am to him and how i let him GO off the hook with MANY things. So here he goes with drama and words that really did something to my spirit. SO WHAT were the words that came from his mouth. SO WHAT i buy a new car with all the accessories and go shopping for nicer things in life and DON'T bother to see if the kids need ANYTHING! Ive been NICE for 2 and a half years with NO C.S.! i get a slap or spit in my face for being nice and letting things GO. So by him saying that to me my BLOOD BOILED! it was running over in my veins. Of course i argued with him but after all that God told me to LET it GO and turn the other cheek!! Then of course God reminds me of the revelation he gave me about the deepness of turning the other cheek.
Then just last night i was trying to chit chat with an old girl friend. I'm not trying to boast or anything but God used me for her. i planted a few seeds and she grew in Christ.(or so i thought) We would chat for hours about God and revelations on what the Lord has given us. So i decided to text her and ask her if she see what was going on in the world? Instead of a decent answer.... i get her ass to kiss. a spit in the face. she say I'm insulting her and I'm some child of god (sarcastically). I'm like WHAT??? where is this coming from? She like falsely accused me of trying to stop her from getting closer to God and was talking to me like a crazy person. Now this girl was i thought so what of a friend but i guess NOT. My feelings were so CRUSHED and i didn't know what to do but shed a few tears. I was trying to play back in my head what I've done to her to get treated this way but all i could come up with was NOTHING!!!
So God told me I'm that Jesus felt when folks turned their backs on him for nothing. I'm sharing the sufferings of Jesus. Turning the other cheek is NOT easy its part of carrying your cross. All in All i still love them and all i can do is forgive them EVEN if it does still hurt!!!
Well it starts first with my kids' dad. We really don't talk that often and when he comes around its like UGH. i never bother him much about the kids and i always let him off the hook with a certain situation. So i decided to let him see the kids out of the goodness of my heart. thinking MAYBE he will help me out but of course NO! i practically get spitted on in so many words. All i could think of is how NICE i am to him and how i let him GO off the hook with MANY things. So here he goes with drama and words that really did something to my spirit. SO WHAT were the words that came from his mouth. SO WHAT i buy a new car with all the accessories and go shopping for nicer things in life and DON'T bother to see if the kids need ANYTHING! Ive been NICE for 2 and a half years with NO C.S.! i get a slap or spit in my face for being nice and letting things GO. So by him saying that to me my BLOOD BOILED! it was running over in my veins. Of course i argued with him but after all that God told me to LET it GO and turn the other cheek!! Then of course God reminds me of the revelation he gave me about the deepness of turning the other cheek.
Then just last night i was trying to chit chat with an old girl friend. I'm not trying to boast or anything but God used me for her. i planted a few seeds and she grew in Christ.(or so i thought) We would chat for hours about God and revelations on what the Lord has given us. So i decided to text her and ask her if she see what was going on in the world? Instead of a decent answer.... i get her ass to kiss. a spit in the face. she say I'm insulting her and I'm some child of god (sarcastically). I'm like WHAT??? where is this coming from? She like falsely accused me of trying to stop her from getting closer to God and was talking to me like a crazy person. Now this girl was i thought so what of a friend but i guess NOT. My feelings were so CRUSHED and i didn't know what to do but shed a few tears. I was trying to play back in my head what I've done to her to get treated this way but all i could come up with was NOTHING!!!
So God told me I'm that Jesus felt when folks turned their backs on him for nothing. I'm sharing the sufferings of Jesus. Turning the other cheek is NOT easy its part of carrying your cross. All in All i still love them and all i can do is forgive them EVEN if it does still hurt!!!
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